I could almost say it's amazing that I'm updating this... sadly it's only because msn my space isn't accessable from this computer and nor is xanga. This isn't going to be very exciting.

I'm in I.T, behind in work, but that's besides the point, it's the most boring class I have (along with theatre studies). We sit in alphabetical order, so I'm pretty much all alone and my computer faces the teacher so logging into sites such as... xanga (which got banned from me doing so) is a bad idea.

We have a substitute teacher today, which I suppose is something I shouldn't really be complaining about. But what it does is leave me with less stuff to do. --looks at work sheet-- I have no idea what it's about so I'm just not gonna try. Why waste my time.

After I.T I have T&T.. that's probably my third worst subject. The person I used to sit next to decided to up and leave to New Zealand, which left me as an odd number so there's noone to sit next to. Thankgod for Calvin, Sam, Mish and Andy, without them, there'd be no entertainment, I swear.

I'm not liking a certain someone at the moment. God, how pathetic of me. I don't know, she's just put me through shit loads of nothingness to get a good friendship outta her. Whatevveerr.. not wasting any more of my time on her. Is that mean?

Strangely enough someone that's very close to her is sitting behind me... I hope they don't read this. Wait.. that's very unlikely...

Here. This'll give me something to do ::

Free-spirited and wise. You have a strong passionate spirit that touches and changes all who know you. The wisdom and common sense that you have is really what guides you through life. Even so, you also have a very playful side that loves adventure and excitement.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

///Survey///

+ Clothes and stuff.

1. What do people tend to label you as (i.e., Chav (townie) Prep, trendy, punk, Goth, mambo, skater etc): People are superficial. I hate them. Normally I'm labelled as a "typical girl", I couldn't possible be able to run or do anything other than paint my nails and look pretty. Ugh.

2. Do you choose to label yourself (if you do, what as?): I don't label.

3. Describe your dress sense: Meh, it changes. I'm not dressy, normally just casual.

4. What are you wearing right now: My school uniform, I'm in I.T.. productive aren't I?

5. What jewellery are you wearing: A cool watch, a ring, a cross on my neck and my second earrings which are sapphire (sp?) studs.

6. What are you most known for wearing: Clothes wise? Probably my baggy jeans and a black top of some sort. That's about it.

7. Do you belong to a particular clique? Nup.

8. Friends wise – do you hang around with people who dress the same as you? Uhm, no actually, my friends are all really different to eachother. Some dress uniquely, some dress tarty, some dress completely modest. That's why I came to the conclusion that we're a bunch of outcasts, but in the best sense of the word. If that makes any sense whatsoever.

9. What particular clothes style do you hate and why: I don't like ugg boots, I think they're ridiculous, who the fuck goes out in winter wearing a mini skirt and slippers... what a fuckhead. I don't like leapord print either. Now, what I hate are those wannabe Good Charlotte people. That drives me up the wall.

10. Describe your hair: It's blond, always goes shit. I wanna re dye it already.

11. Do you take pride in your appearance? Yeh, I like to look nice because it makes me feel better about myself.

+ The opposite sex. (Or same, depending)

12. Would you say you were straight, gay or bi? Straight.

13. What is your attitude to gay relationships if you’re straight? I think they're fine, I'm not fussed, personally I think it's completely unfair that people won't let people who are attracted to the same sex marry.

14. Do you know anyone who is gay or bi? Yep.

15. Who? LoL. Nice try.

16. Have you ever had a sexual experience with someone of the same sex? Kissing, lol, does that count?

17. Are you currently in a relationship? Yes.

18. If your answer is no – do you want to be?

19. Do you have a specific type in guys (or girls)? Only the usual. Nice hair, nice dress, nice eyes... lol... kinda cliche isn't it?

20. What kind of people will you NOT go out with? People who say "fuwwee sik mattee" lol.

21. What kind of people would you LOVE to go out with? The person I am going out with is fine lol.

22. Do you have crushes (if so, who are they :::describe:::): Yep, Brandon Flowers and Jakey B The Rock Kid. Brandon is the lead singer from The Killers and Jacob is from the X Factor.

23. What song makes you feel most romantic? Ones I can relate to and mean something. Der.

24. What’s your age limit (you won’t go out with people older than…)? 19.

25. Would you go out with people younger than you? Uhm. Only .a few months. That's it.

26. Are you in love? Yes.

27. Have you ever been in love with someone who wasn’t available to you? Maybe at one stage.

+ Music

28. What song are you listening to now? I'm in class.

29. Name 6 of your favourite bands and singers: The Killers, Green Day, The Used, cbf.

30. How often do you listen to music: Whenever I can.

31. How would you describe your music taste: It's kool. Rock Alternative.

32. Is the music you like a strong representation of you and your personality?

33. Can you sing, or are you in a band? I can sing, but not too well, and no, I'm not in a band.

+ Favourites

34.  Favourite Films (list a minimum of 3): Shrek. Shrek 2. (How lame, that's all).

35. Favourite T.V shows (list 3): Will & Grace, The X Factor and The Simpsons.

36. Favourite Drinks (list 3): Coke, Coffee and Premixed Smirnoff Lemon flavoured.

37. Favourite Ethnic Food (Don't just put down "Chinese".. what specifically..): Chinese lol... Chicken and Sweet Corn Soup.

38. Favourite Snack Items (list 3): Saladas with cheese and tomato, lollies and whatever I can get my hands on that tastes good.

39. Favourite Books (include authors): I don't know, not a big reader, can never find the time.

40. Favourite Drawing Medium (ie. Pencil, Pastels, Conte, Charcoal): Grey Lead, then a fine liner.

41. Favourite Cereals (list 2): Sultana Bran (with added sultanas) and Coco Pops.

+ Family  Friends

42. Do you have a big family? On my Dad's side it's huge, on my Mum's no.

43. Who are you closest to? In my family? LoL. Questions are so vague, I hate them.

44. Do you get on better with your mum or your dad? It really does depend.

45. Do you get along with your siblings? I don't know, I don't have any.

46. Who lives with you? C.P my cat, Mum and Dad.

47. Are your parents divorced? Nope. Surprisingly.

48. One best friend or a lot of friends? A boyfriend and a lot of friends.

49. Who was the last friend you hung out with, and what did you do? Jess and Allen, we went to Flakeys and I drank Soy Sauce... blegh.

50. Who was the last friend you chatted with on the phone? Allen.

51. Is there one particular thing you can do with one friend that you can’t do with any of the others? Allen's a friend and I can have sex with him... hahah. hahahahha... okay. Not funny.

52. Who can you tell all your secrets to? No-one.

53. Who was the last friend you were annoyed with and why? Shannon, because I thought she gave me an evil look hehe.

54. Which friend do you share most in common with? Uhm. Allen? Grrr.. Allen allen allen allen...

+ Random questions

55. Do you have a mobile phone? Yes and no you can't have the number.

56. What make is it? Nokia 3200.

57. What do you use it for? Entertainment. I don't know, calling people.

58. Who is the first person listed in your phone (book): Alex.

59. What’s the situation with the weather right now, where you are? In the class, it's dull weather.

60. Do you like rain? Hell yeah.

61. What time is it? 11.34, I have to go.

62. What are you having for dinner? Who cares.

63. What are you going to do tomorrow? No idea.

64. What was the last movie you watched? The Ring 2.

65. What are your favourite names? Conrad, August.

66. What’s your favourite take out food? Maccas.

67. In single words (not sentences) describe your personality: Dull.

68. Name a few people you can’t stand: No, that's mean.

69. When was the last time you laughed hysterically and why? When I went to that place I went to for Xmas Holidays. It was a funny night. I don't laugh histerically often at all.

70. When was the last time you were scared and why? Two nights ago, watching the Ring 2. There were parts which frightened me. LoL.

71. How old are your grandparents? Nana is about 77 and Grandma is about 87.

72. What’s your nearest church called? Uhm, no idea actually.

73. The last time you ate birthday cake? Laura's 16th Party.

74. The last book you read? Oh God, no idea. Probably The Divine Wind by Garry Disher.

75. The next book you’re going to read? Uhm, most likely The girl with the pearl earring.

76. Do you have fantasies (Whether sexual or not, you tell me): Lol. Maybe.

77. Who was the last person who showed you affection? It that means a hug, Shannon.

78. What’s your favourite Shakespeare play? Romeo and Juliet?

79. When you go into a bookshop, which section do you head for? Fiction.

80. When was the last time you were so overly annoyed, you wanted to scream blue murder: Not telling --ners at you--

81. Who was the last person you spoke to through IM: Uhm, no idea.

82. What’s the date today? 29th of March.

83. If you died, what song would you want to be played at your funeral?: I'm still deciding.

( Stupid Survey )

I wish there was a damn
way to tell you that what you're doing
hurts.

But I'm presuming even if I
did
tell you, you'd throw it back in my face.

Does this
mean I stay? I put
up with what turns each
blue sky, grey?

Because I can't l o s e
you. Not again.



I'm a strong
person, really,
I am.

And I assure
you it will be okay. But
sometimes,
you can just...

Live with
it, but would much rather not..

I even think it //hurts// more than I
realise. I could
never
ask you to stop.

I'd never let you ask me to stop.
It's only that I can't
see how you could go on.

Knowing, believing, realising.



You're heartless. I know it's not your
fault. Nor is it
mine.



I wish there was something I could do.



I want my fairy dust back.



I want one wish.



That's all.

( Survey, yay. )

79 Days.

Nevermind, it's not like I cared. Or is that just what you presumed? You do that a lot. Just assume my feelings. Just think that it's all okay. When it's not. That's just you, I suppose. Yet I get the raw end of the deal, and have to accept it, every single day.

I'm waiting.... don't ask me for what. Not even I know. Don't you hate that? You're the one person who should know things. But you don't. You don't even know the substance to your wellbeing. To anything. What do you do then? I've been waiting for some answer for ages. I guess that's a stupid idea, hey?

.The way you see me doesn't matter.
.Ahh... there you are... well, one of you anyway.
.Still thinking of you...still after this long.
.Three panadol and I still hurt.
.Creep up to me.
.Do you remember those days?.
.On the rooftop that rainy night.
.It meant something to me.
.Nevermind.
.It's over now.