M y s t i c M e m o r i e s

mysticmemories @ 2005-10-06T09:23:00

2005-10-05T23:26:26Z

I stole your number from the diary.

you told me I wasn't a werido, which I guess, in a strange, strange way.. made it okay. I believed you. Tell me, am I right to trust you?

it's seems rather strange to know we attended the same school for four years and I don't remember seeing you once. Where were you, hey?

but then again.. everything happens for a reason. And even though I didn't know you then..

I know you now.

that's all that really matters...

<33

Oh wow

2005-05-04T01:35:06Z

I could almost say it's amazing that I'm updating this... sadly it's only because msn my space isn't accessable from this computer and nor is xanga. This isn't going to be very exciting.

I'm in I.T, behind in work, but that's besides the point, it's the most boring class I have (along with theatre studies). We sit in alphabetical order, so I'm pretty much all alone and my computer faces the teacher so logging into sites such as... xanga (which got banned from me doing so) is a bad idea.

We have a substitute teacher today, which I suppose is something I shouldn't really be complaining about. But what it does is leave me with less stuff to do. --looks at work sheet-- I have no idea what it's about so I'm just not gonna try. Why waste my time.

After I.T I have T&T.. that's probably my third worst subject. The person I used to sit next to decided to up and leave to New Zealand, which left me as an odd number so there's noone to sit next to. Thankgod for Calvin, Sam, Mish and Andy, without them, there'd be no entertainment, I swear.

I'm not liking a certain someone at the moment. God, how pathetic of me. I don't know, she's just put me through shit loads of nothingness to get a good friendship outta her. Whatevveerr.. not wasting any more of my time on her. Is that mean?

Strangely enough someone that's very close to her is sitting behind me... I hope they don't read this. Wait.. that's very unlikely...

Here. This'll give me something to do ::

Questionnaire</span>">

[my name is]: Kathryn, ick, don’t ever call me that.

[in the morning i am]: Always tired. Angry. You know what it’s like.

[love is]: Sometimes good. Sometimes bad.

[i dream about]: Random things… it’s weird.

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-

[what do you notice first?]: Hrm, looks I guess… being the first thing you see.

[last person u slow danced with]: Julie Bulie, it was hardly dancing, but he was showing me what to do for some Cha Cha.

-W H O-

[do you have a crush on?]: Uhm. My boyfriend?

[easiest to talk to]: Shannon.

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-

[fallen for your best friend]: Nope, I don’t think so.

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-

[you talked to on the phone]: Allen.

[hugged]: Nat.

[you instant messaged]: Well.. uhm.. I don’t remember.

[you laughed with]: I hardly ever laugh but uhm. I don’t remember lol.

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-

[could you live without the computer?]: Uh, I guess I wouldn’t die, but I’d definitely hate it.

[what's your favorite food?]: Chicken. Nice chicken.

[whats ur favorite fruit?]: Mango, Watermelon, Fejoyas (nooo idea how to spell), Pomegrenate.

[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: Physical.

[trust others way too easily?]: Ohhh yeah.

-N U M B E R-

[of times i have had my heart broken? ]: I dunno, lots I’d say.

[of hearts i have broken?] : Pfft, no idea.

[of boys i have kissed?] : More than you think lol.

[of girls i have kissed?] : A few.

[of drugs taken illegally?] : Three? But smoking and Drinking are hardly illegal.

[of cd's that i own?] : Too many to count off the top of my head.

[of scars on my body?] : About 10 lol. Mainly chicken pox.

[of things in my past that i regret?] : Lets not go there, ey?

-O.T.H.E.R.T.H.I.N.G.S.-

[i know]: there is a rainbow, for me to follow, to get beyond my sorrow.

[i want]: of things, but I need nothing.

[i have]: A belly button piercing.

[i wish]: I may, I wish I might, have this wish I wish tonight.

[i hate]: nothing, well.. maybe not noootthingg… ^_^

[i miss]: Stupid little things. Like, going to my Nana’s. I miss my Nana…

[i fear]: pain. Ghosts. Vomiting. Spiders.

[i hear]: incessant clicking of mouses and stupid conversations.

[i search]: for happiness I guess.

[i love]: Allen. Shannon. Chicken. So on and so fourth.

[i ache]: My head aches.

[i care]: for everything. I’m a hugely empathetic person.

[i always]: wake up too late in the mornings.

[i dance]: to music.. when by myself.. only rarely when out lol.

[i cry]: toooo often.

[i do not always]: give greasies.

[i write]: well, I hope. I love writing.

[i confuse]: myself, and people around me.

[i can usually be found]: on msn. If I’m not on, you should be worried.

[i need]: nothing, but I want everything.

[have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing]: yep, but never got very far.

[if so, when and with who]: Years ago.

[favorite place to be kissed?]: neck?

[have you ever been caught "doing something"]: Yup.

[druggie]: Not naming names -- cough cough --

[daydreamer]: Laura.

[alcoholic]: Sarah North bahaha, only joking. My Mum.

[freak]: That’s mean.

[sarcastic]: Me.

[goody-goody]: Julian :P

[angel]: Teneal.

[devil]: Betty.

[friend]: Jess.

[shy]: Vivien.

[talkative]: Teeghan.

[adventurous]: Shannon.

[intelligent]: Danni.

-Concerning.The.Friends-

[impacted you the most spiritually]: Allen.

[wish you saw more often]: Julian, Sam, Mel G.

[wish you knew better]: Natty.

[knows you best]: Allen or Shannon.

[best outlook on life]: Not sure.

[most paranoid]: James.

[sweetest]: Mel G.

-Self-Analysis.You.Probably.Don't.Want.To.Do-

[your best feature (personality)]: Empathetic.

[your biggest flaw (personality)]: Uptight.

[most annoying thing you do]: hrm, lotsa things.

[biggest mistake you've made this far]: Trusting people.

[describe your personality in one word]: Unstable.

[the physical feature for which you are most often complimented]: Uhm. Nothing in particular, it’s just “you’re pretty”.

[height]: Too tall.

[a smell that makes you smile]: Allen.

[a city you'd like to visit]: Brisbane.

[a drink you order most often]: … coke. Or something mochaish.

[the music you prefer while alone]: Depends on mood.

[your favorite band]: Not sure.

[a film you could watch over and over]: Shrek, Aladdin, Harry Potter.

[a TV show you watch regularly]: The OC, Simpsons, Neighbours, Will And Grace, Friends.

[you live in a]: home.

[your transportation]: car or bus or walking.

[your cologne or perfume]: Ralph Lauren Blue or Cool.

[under your bed or in your closet you hide]: Condoms hahaha.

[something important on your night table]: My phone.

mysticmemories @ 2005-04-29T13:40:00

2005-04-29T03:40:09Z

You Are Pocahantas!

Free-spirited and wise. You have a strong passionate spirit that touches and changes all who know you. The wisdom and common sense that you have is really what guides you through life. Even so, you also have a very playful side that loves adventure and excitement.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

mysticmemories @ 2005-04-10T22:20:00

2005-04-10T12:21:28Z

Last night, when the moon arose
It wasn’t a star I saw
this time it was something different.
The night was shady
it was cold and I knew
I knew that this was the last time.

Though it was bitter, it was not winter
the sky was clear, it was crisp
It wasn’t fog, but it was
the realization of what I thought
I would never have to deal with.

So I sat, and stared
the stars were bright, they showed patterns
I loved patterns
and then I fell asleep...

I took a deep breath, it was cold and
it filled me with sharp blades
It cut me deep and tore away at my lungs
I struggled to breathe, I knew
so I said goodbye.

I realized
and then I realized again
… then everything was gone.

mysticmemories @ 2005-04-04T15:21:00

2005-04-04T05:21:54Z

mysticmemories @ 2005-03-30T21:16:00

2005-03-30T11:18:17Z

I tried to be perfect, but it just wasn't worth it...

You know nothing about me...

My Xanga

You're entitled to this... It's nothing special... sorry.

Survey

2005-03-29T01:36:04Z

///Survey///

+ Clothes and stuff.

1. What do people tend to label you as (i.e., Chav (townie) Prep, trendy, punk, Goth, mambo, skater etc): People are superficial. I hate them. Normally I'm labelled as a "typical girl", I couldn't possible be able to run or do anything other than paint my nails and look pretty. Ugh.

2. Do you choose to label yourself (if you do, what as?): I don't label.

3. Describe your dress sense: Meh, it changes. I'm not dressy, normally just casual.

4. What are you wearing right now: My school uniform, I'm in I.T.. productive aren't I?

5. What jewellery are you wearing: A cool watch, a ring, a cross on my neck and my second earrings which are sapphire (sp?) studs.

6. What are you most known for wearing: Clothes wise? Probably my baggy jeans and a black top of some sort. That's about it.

7. Do you belong to a particular clique? Nup.

8. Friends wise – do you hang around with people who dress the same as you? Uhm, no actually, my friends are all really different to eachother. Some dress uniquely, some dress tarty, some dress completely modest. That's why I came to the conclusion that we're a bunch of outcasts, but in the best sense of the word. If that makes any sense whatsoever.

9. What particular clothes style do you hate and why: I don't like ugg boots, I think they're ridiculous, who the fuck goes out in winter wearing a mini skirt and slippers... what a fuckhead. I don't like leapord print either. Now, what I hate are those wannabe Good Charlotte people. That drives me up the wall.

10. Describe your hair: It's blond, always goes shit. I wanna re dye it already.

11. Do you take pride in your appearance? Yeh, I like to look nice because it makes me feel better about myself.

+ The opposite sex. (Or same, depending)

12. Would you say you were straight, gay or bi? Straight.

13. What is your attitude to gay relationships if you’re straight? I think they're fine, I'm not fussed, personally I think it's completely unfair that people won't let people who are attracted to the same sex marry.

14. Do you know anyone who is gay or bi? Yep.

15. Who? LoL. Nice try.

16. Have you ever had a sexual experience with someone of the same sex? Kissing, lol, does that count?

17. Are you currently in a relationship? Yes.

18. If your answer is no – do you want to be?

19. Do you have a specific type in guys (or girls)? Only the usual. Nice hair, nice dress, nice eyes... lol... kinda cliche isn't it?

20. What kind of people will you NOT go out with? People who say "fuwwee sik mattee" lol.

21. What kind of people would you LOVE to go out with? The person I am going out with is fine lol.

22. Do you have crushes (if so, who are they :::describe:::): Yep, Brandon Flowers and Jakey B The Rock Kid. Brandon is the lead singer from The Killers and Jacob is from the X Factor.

23. What song makes you feel most romantic? Ones I can relate to and mean something. Der.

24. What’s your age limit (you won’t go out with people older than…)? 19.

25. Would you go out with people younger than you? Uhm. Only .a few months. That's it.

26. Are you in love? Yes.

27. Have you ever been in love with someone who wasn’t available to you? Maybe at one stage.

+ Music

28. What song are you listening to now? I'm in class.

29. Name 6 of your favourite bands and singers: The Killers, Green Day, The Used, cbf.

30. How often do you listen to music: Whenever I can.

31. How would you describe your music taste: It's kool. Rock Alternative.

32. Is the music you like a strong representation of you and your personality?

33. Can you sing, or are you in a band? I can sing, but not too well, and no, I'm not in a band.

+ Favourites

34. Favourite Films (list a minimum of 3): Shrek. Shrek 2. (How lame, that's all).

35. Favourite T.V shows (list 3): Will & Grace, The X Factor and The Simpsons.

36. Favourite Drinks (list 3): Coke, Coffee and Premixed Smirnoff Lemon flavoured.

37. Favourite Ethnic Food (Don't just put down "Chinese".. what specifically..): Chinese lol... Chicken and Sweet Corn Soup.

38. Favourite Snack Items (list 3): Saladas with cheese and tomato, lollies and whatever I can get my hands on that tastes good.

39. Favourite Books (include authors): I don't know, not a big reader, can never find the time.

40. Favourite Drawing Medium (ie. Pencil, Pastels, Conte, Charcoal): Grey Lead, then a fine liner.

41. Favourite Cereals (list 2): Sultana Bran (with added sultanas) and Coco Pops.

+ Family Friends

42. Do you have a big family? On my Dad's side it's huge, on my Mum's no.

43. Who are you closest to? In my family? LoL. Questions are so vague, I hate them.

44. Do you get on better with your mum or your dad? It really does depend.

45. Do you get along with your siblings? I don't know, I don't have any.

46. Who lives with you? C.P my cat, Mum and Dad.

47. Are your parents divorced? Nope. Surprisingly.

48. One best friend or a lot of friends? A boyfriend and a lot of friends.

49. Who was the last friend you hung out with, and what did you do? Jess and Allen, we went to Flakeys and I drank Soy Sauce... blegh.

50. Who was the last friend you chatted with on the phone? Allen.

51. Is there one particular thing you can do with one friend that you can’t do with any of the others? Allen's a friend and I can have sex with him... hahah. hahahahha... okay. Not funny.

52. Who can you tell all your secrets to? No-one.

53. Who was the last friend you were annoyed with and why? Shannon, because I thought she gave me an evil look hehe.

54. Which friend do you share most in common with? Uhm. Allen? Grrr.. Allen allen allen allen...

+ Random questions

55. Do you have a mobile phone? Yes and no you can't have the number.

56. What make is it? Nokia 3200.

57. What do you use it for? Entertainment. I don't know, calling people.

58. Who is the first person listed in your phone (book): Alex.

59. What’s the situation with the weather right now, where you are? In the class, it's dull weather.

60. Do you like rain? Hell yeah.

61. What time is it? 11.34, I have to go.

62. What are you having for dinner? Who cares.

63. What are you going to do tomorrow? No idea.

64. What was the last movie you watched? The Ring 2.

65. What are your favourite names? Conrad, August.

66. What’s your favourite take out food? Maccas.

67. In single words (not sentences) describe your personality: Dull.

68. Name a few people you can’t stand: No, that's mean.

69. When was the last time you laughed hysterically and why? When I went to that place I went to for Xmas Holidays. It was a funny night. I don't laugh histerically often at all.

70. When was the last time you were scared and why? Two nights ago, watching the Ring 2. There were parts which frightened me. LoL.

71. How old are your grandparents? Nana is about 77 and Grandma is about 87.

72. What’s your nearest church called? Uhm, no idea actually.

73. The last time you ate birthday cake? Laura's 16th Party.

74. The last book you read? Oh God, no idea. Probably The Divine Wind by Garry Disher.

75. The next book you’re going to read? Uhm, most likely The girl with the pearl earring.

76. Do you have fantasies (Whether sexual or not, you tell me): Lol. Maybe.

77. Who was the last person who showed you affection? It that means a hug, Shannon.

78. What’s your favourite Shakespeare play? Romeo and Juliet?

79. When you go into a bookshop, which section do you head for? Fiction.

80. When was the last time you were so overly annoyed, you wanted to scream blue murder: Not telling --ners at you--

81. Who was the last person you spoke to through IM: Uhm, no idea.

82. What’s the date today? 29th of March.

83. If you died, what song would you want to be played at your funeral?: I'm still deciding.

So cold.

2005-03-25T01:49:25Z

// Be Honest //

put an "X" for everything you've done

( ) been drunk
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) crashed a friend's car (it was my parents)
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
( ) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(x) stole something from your job(I was allowed to though, does that count?)
( ) celebrated New Years in Time Square
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new Orleans
( ) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa
(x) Slapped someone you love
( ) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire.

(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(x) Been moshing at a show
( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(x) gone to college
( ) graduated college
(x) had sexual intercourse
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
( ) went to a prom
( ) Bungee jumped
(x) have been to a pop concert
(x) have dated someone for a year or more
( ) sold naked pictures of yourself
( ) been in a car accident
( ) Slept in the nude
(x) eaten cheesecake
( ) had jury duty
(x) hated someone without knowing them.
( ) been to Maine
( ) shot a real gun
( ) had sex with someone within a week of meeting them
(x) made out with someone within 5 days of meeting them
( ) done ecstasy
( ) gotten your ass kicked
(x) been caught smoking
(x) milked a cow
(x) got in a verbal fight
(x) lied one time in this survey (I deleted Q's I didn't want to answer)
( ) Threw a party at a friends house when they were gone
( ) Done something w/ a friends bf/gf
( ) Done something with a bf/gf's sibling
(x) Committed a major crime
(x) Dated someone older than you are
(x) Gotten in trouble w/ the cops
(x) ran away
(x) Ever given someone a hicky
(x) Ever been given a hicky
( ) Ever got super drunk
(x) Went skinny dipping
(x) Lied about where you're going
(x) Ever lied about your age
( ) Ever been pantsed
( ) Had mono?
( ) Beer bonged
(x) Got into a physical fight w/ a parent
( ) taken a shower with opposite sex
( ) had sex for more than 2 hours..yeah buddy :)
( ) done drugs?
( ) had a crush on some one from myspace?
(x) watched porn?

mysticmemories @ 2005-03-15T18:54:00

2005-03-15T08:19:48Z

What is your full name? You can make it up if you want, I won’t know the difference: Kathryn, I hate it.

Tell me about your family if you want to. If you’re too lazy, that’s okay, I don’t really care: My family are okay, I tend to not spend too much time with them though.

When’s your birthday? September 5th.

What day do you wish was your birthday? Somewhere in July.

So how old are you? 16.

Do you like being that age? It's shit. I wasted it.

What’s your school like? Nothing special.

Do you even like your school? Not overly.

Do you have a job or are you too lazy like me? No, I have a job, but it doesn't mean I'm not lazy.

If yes, tell me about your job; if no, why not? Because it's boring.

Describe to me your personality: I wish I could.

What do you do when you’re bored? Eat, surprisingly I'm still rather skinny.

Well what do you do when the electricity goes out and you can’t rely on electronics to keep you occupied? Sit. Eat. You know how it is.

Are you into sports, more of the "fine arts," or a mix of both? I like music and writing. That's all.

Are you a people person? Occasionally.

What do you want to be when you grow up? Some sort of writer.

What is, in your opinion, the easiest job in the world? Not sure.

Are you responsible? ... sometimes.

Which is better (or more tolerable) . . . Explain yourself

Cats or dogs as pets? Cats, you don't have to walk them.

Digital watch or regular? Digital, but I like normal ones.

Pepsi or Coke (sorry, I know that’s a big repeat, but it has to be asked)? Coke, I don't know why, I just prefer it.

Hot tub or sauna? Hot tub.

Freshly caught fish or cheapy frozen fish sticks? I hate fish. It made me vomit.

Boring teacher or mean teacher? Boring.. I hate people yelling.. it makes me sad lol.

Gum stuck in your hair or curling brush stuck in your hair? Curling brush. Because gum is bad.

Paper cut on your tongue or dirt in your eyes? ... dirt... paper cut sounds awful.

Carpet or hardwood floors? Depends. Carpet in bedrooms, floorboards in... loungerooms.. with a big rug... and a fireplace... getting carried away..

Candles or room spray? Room spray, it's easier. I went through a candle stage once though.

Smoothie or milkshake? Smoothie. Banana. LoL.

Block scheduling or eight periods a day (for school)? Wtf is block scheduling?

Crying by yourself or having someone to cry with you? It depends who you're crying with. I think by myself.. as strange as it is.. I don't like people seeing my cry.

Baby screaming or fingernails scratching chalkboard? .. fingernails.. makes me shudder.

Chicken or beef? Chicken, I don't like beef that much, even tho I should, I need my iron.

Talking on the phone or instant messaging? Phone, it's more personal.

The Lion King or The Little Mermaid? Lion King, never liked the Little Mermaid much. She was too pretty, it annoyed me.

Watching the rain or being in the rain? Watching, I hate getting wet.

Soft pillow or firm pillow? Soft... well, medium.

Whoo, whoo, all about LOVE and Relationships

Okay, first obvious question, are you single or taken? Single.

If taken, take a moment to brag all about your significant other; if single,

What do you look for in a relationship? ... I don't know.

As far as looks go for the opposite sex, what makes you want to look twice (in a good way, lol) In other words, what’s your type, physically? Uhm, not Aussie looking.. (in the nice way). Sort of olive skin... nice eyes, nice smile, you know how the cliche goes...

Of all the people you’ve dated, who was the one you fell for the hardest? ... ... *coughs*

Of all the people you’ve dated, who was the one that you definitely could’ve done without? All those flings at the 21st lol.

What was the longest relationship you’ve been in, or what was the longest time you had a crush on someone? I was in a relationship for two years.

Tell me about your first kiss. If you’ve never been kissed, tell me what you want your first kiss to be like: My first kiss was pretty good.

Are you all for or against public displays of affection? Depends on what kind of displays.

Which is most important to you in a relationship - faithfulness, compatibility, or excitement? compatibility.

If you really like someone, are you more likely to eventually ask them out or forever hold your peace? I don't know. I know, I'm boring.

What’s the best place for a first date? Not sure really. Maybe a coffee somewhere.

Would you prefer more romance or fun in a relationship? Both.

Have you ever told someone you loved them? Yes.

If yes, did you mean it; if no, did you ever want to tell someone you loved them but didn’t? I meant it with every inch of my heart.

Has someone ever told you that they loved you? Yes.

If yes, what was your initial reaction and did you say it back? My initial reaction was "what, are we allowed to say that" and "really? Is he serious?" LoL, that's funny.. my initial reaction was... uh.. I'm scared lol.

Does "true love wait"? (What is your opinion on premarital sex?) I think it's fine.

Have you ever been asked out and had to turn them down? Yeh.

If yes, what did you say; if no, have you yourself ever been turned down? I said, I'm sorry, I don't feel that way...? How cliche.

Do believe that there’s that perfect someone out there for you? There was, but they've gone.

Ever had your heart broken? Shattered into a million pieces... I could feel it.

Ever broken someone else’s? Probably, I'm always doing something wrong.

Would you rather date a bunch of people all throughout high school and settle down when you get older or meet "the one" while you’re still young? (hey, that rhymed): I don't know actually.

What do like most about the opposite sex? Their dick.. I don't know.. what is with these questions?

Would you rather have to break up with someone or be broken up with? Hrm, not sure about that one.

Is a serious commitment in a high school relationship a bad idea? .. I don't think so.

Have I asked enough questions on this subject? Undoubtedly.

If yes, scroll down to the next section; if no, say whatever you want to say about love in general that I didn’t ask you: It's probably the best thing I've ever felt.

Friends . . .

Well, instead of having a big retarded section asking you which of your friends is the cutest, funniest, nicest, blah blah blah, I want you to tell me all about the friends that you feel like telling me about.

Who was your elementary best friend? Elementary? I live in Australia. LoL.

Would you rather have a few really close friends or a big group of casual acquaintance type friends? Close friends.

I’m just curious . . .

Do you find blonde jokes offensive, hilarious, or just stupid? Stupid, derogotary.

What do you like to watch on tv, if you watch tv? Desperate Houswives, Neighbours, Simpsons.

Do you have any plants in your house? Yeh.

Ever had a pet fish? Yep.

Were you a cute little kid or an annoying little kid? Both lol.

Are marshmallows good anytime or strictly a campfire treat? Most of the time.

How many magazines are you subscribed to? Zero.

When is the last time you went to the dentist? A week or so ago.

Did you have any cavities? Yeh, I'm getting a root canal.

Do you have a song stuck in your head right now? If so, what song is it? Nope, but you just put one in there * I don't know what it is, that makes me feel like this, I don't know who you are, but you must be some kind of superstar *.

What is your favorite variety of microwave popcorn? Flavor and brand: Normal with butter.

What is your favorite variety and color of MM’s? Just the normal and crunchy.

In your opinion, what’s the best type of dessert and why? Uhm, not sure.

While we’re on the subject, what’s your favorite food? I don't know whether I have one.

Are you allergic to any foods? I used to be allergic to oranges...

Do you believe in God? No.

If no, tell me why; if yes, tell me why: Because it's pathetic.

Did you know that Jesus loves you? Thanks.

The Future . . . (dramatic "oohs" and "ahhs") <-- how mature.

Do you have it all planned out or are you just going to take life in stride as it comes? I don't know, I hate life.

When do you get out of school? A year and a half.

Excited? Not sure.

What are you going to do this summer? Summer just ended.

What grade are you going into? 12 next year, if I pass.

Are you going to move away as soon as you’re out of school or stay where you are? I don't know.

So do you know what college you’re going to, or if you’re even going to college? Nope.

If you are, what do you think your major will be? Journalism maybe.

Do you plan on getting married, provided that you meet the right person? I want to. I'd love to get prettied up.

If so, do you want kids? If yes, how many? Not sure.

Tearful Goodbye . . . (sniff sniff)

What more important, more practical thing could you have done instead of filling out this survey? Nothing probably.

About how long did it take you? Ten minutes.

Was it worth it? Not overly.

So hey, how well do you know me, if at all? You seem rather cool actually. I'd like to meet you lol. Provided you didn't live in America.

If you do know me, what do you think of me? ... ^^^

What did you think of my survey? Better than others.

What are you going to do now that it’s over? Nothing.

I guess it isn’t over yet, is it? Are you going to ask more questions...

I’m still typing . . . ... yes you arree...

Okay, now it’s over. --sighs-- good lol

mysticmemories @ 2005-03-10T16:30:00

2005-03-10T05:38:28Z

10 things that scare me:
1 Ghosts
2 Shadows
3 Vomiting
4 Scary movies
5 Fearing fear
6 Pain
7 Failure
8 Being left lonely
9 Being alone at night
10 Uhm. The Grudge.

9 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1 Sense of Humor
2 Great Personality
3 Nice eyes
4 Intelligence
5 Perhaps does a sport
6 Cares about me
7 Someone I can talk to
8 Not a shy person
9 Style

8 things i love:
1 Love
2 Family
3 Friends
4 Rain
5 Music (The Killers)
6 Coffee
7 Watermelon
8 Mangoes

7 things i hate:
1 Being lonely lol
2 Assholes
3 Being frightened
4 When you can't write because it's too cold
5 Being bitched about or talked down to
6 Geting up really early
7 Being confused

6 random facts about me:
1 I get stress bumps on my hands
2 I'm drinking coke
3 I have straight teeth (it was a long process)
5 When I swim, I tend to choke on the water
6 I miss people

5 things i plan to do before i die:
1 Find someone I love and marry them and then live happily ever after ^_^
2 Hopefully go to Italy
3 Become a writer
4 Change someones life.. in a good way
5 Be liked for who I am.

4 things i want to do now:
1 Go to Frankston
2 Have a shower
3 Yell at various people
4 Pass VCE

3 things that annoy me:
1 People who walk annoyingly
2 Chewing. Grrr
3 People who are racist or bumholes

2 things i can do:
1 Cry
2 Play tennis

1 thing i can't do:
1 Be what people want me to be.

mysticmemories @ 2005-01-30T13:44:00

2005-01-30T02:44:23Z

You scored as Indie. Indie.

</td>

Indie

88%

Classic Rock.

83%

Emo & More

71%

Hardcore

63%

Industrial

54%

Indie Rock

54%

Britpop

42%

Punk and Pop Punk.

38%

Mainstream

33%

Country

21%

Hip Hop and Rap

21%

Ska

13%

Music Recommendation
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mysticmemories @ 2005-01-17T13:49:00

2005-01-17T02:49:35Z

I wish there was a damn
way to tell you that what you're doing
hurts.

But I'm presuming even if I
did
tell you, you'd throw it back in my face.

Does this
mean I stay? I put
up with what turns each
blue sky, grey?

Because I can't l o s e
you. Not again.

I'm a strong
person, really,
I am.

And I assure
you it will be okay. But
sometimes,
you can just...

Live with
it, but would much rather not..

I even think it //hurts// more than I
realise. I could
never
ask you to stop.

I'd never let you ask me to stop.
It's only that I can't
see how you could go on.

Knowing, believing, realising.

You're heartless. I know it's not your
fault. Nor is it
mine.

I wish there was something I could do.

I want my fairy dust back.

I want one wish.

That's all.

mysticmemories @ 2005-01-04T00:02:00

2005-01-03T13:04:00Z

Entry deleted. =)

Using the "lj cut" thing because I'm lame and I think it's cool.

2004-12-30T12:42:49Z

10 random things about me:
I have nice hair, it's dyed, that's why it's nice... how sad.
My eyes change colour, I'm a freak of nature... -__-
I like NeoPets.
I work at Toys R Us.
I like money.
Allen thinks my feet smell.. don't deny it Allen... o_O;
I think I have problems and need to see a psychologist.
There's weird things in front of me.
I've been drinking water lately.
This is the last one. How... boring.

9 ways to win my heart:
I don't have nine ways though. o_o
Be Allen.
Have lots of things in common with me.
Treat me like a lay-day.
Don't buy me things... evil. O_O
Okay, that's enough.

8 things i wanna do before i die:
Breathing is always good.
Adopt a child.
... do something adenalin-ish.
Snorkle. I'm too scared. Fish scare me.
Have a life scare. I know, I'm a weirdo.
Listen to music.
Become famous for a day.
Be a writer... ^_^

7 ways to annoy me:
Interrupt me while I'm saying something important.
Chew loudly... eat loudly, drink loudly... grr.
Fidget. Is that how you spell it?
Think you're a good singer... but you're really terrible.
Call me skinny.
Think you're better than people.
Be really...conceited.

6 things i believe in:
A thing called love (very clever, hehe)
People... sometimes.
That love is just a chemical reaction.
That all emotions are chemical reactions.
That science sucks.
That we... have souls. LoL.

5 things i'm afraid of:
Vomiting.
Spiders.
Fearing fear, the ultimate fear.
Pain.
Being raped.

4 of my favorite items in my room:
My laptop. Lucky meeee ^__^
My bed. Mmm zZZzzz...
My lamp.
Rumple.

3 things i do everyday:
Be tired.
Breathe. Yay. I'm so unique.
Pee. O_o

2 things i want to do right now:
Probably sleep.
Itch my neck... -__-

1 person i want to see right now:
Allen. <33

Same as always...

2004-11-17T08:00:30Z

You know what? I've decided to come back. I'm not going to be picky anymore... I'm not gonna judge you, or poke at you with my incessant nagging...

I love being free... it's such a ... good feeling... I kinda didn't remember what it was like for a period of time there... I'm... just... blissful.

I went through this dark stage.. sort of... got too far ahead, thought too much into things... made it hard for me and others around me...

I realised I should just live, I mean, I'm happy, I really am, but I spend so much of my time waiting to be sad, that I almost force it... strange...

Well, I realised that the beginning of 3 paragraphs begin with I and one begins with you, so I'm deciding to... end this here...

And continue on my happy spree..

Catch.

Another day.

2004-11-05T01:18:41Z

I did sort of disappear for a while there... Live Journal had this weird eerie feeling to it I was not appreciating. Not due to anything either, which probably makes me somewhat insane.. hrm.

I miss it though, you know? I even actually miss the emptiness it left me with... man, I'm a loser.

Yep, at school, failing R.E. Actually, failing everything. That's kinda sad.

Braces come off soon, but... gah, not even that brings a smile... things are so... empty... makes me think... maybe it wasn't Live Journal that was weird, maybe it was me...

I feel like... it's become this huge trend... "live journal" this and that. Another realm covered by insane, pathetic, useless words.... Don't take this to heart... it's noting personal... just my issues with the world and conformism (I know, not a word)... which would make me just as bad, conforming to the non conformity... it's a wicked world...

Pity you're not here with me...

O_O

2004-10-17T00:12:11Z

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	11
your best quality is	youre hot but modest about it
your worst quality is	your family pisses you off
this is because	lifes a bitch

Quiz created with MemeGen!

What do YOUR livejournal friends think of you? by broadwayrl
username
favourite color
sex
is only your friend because you told them to be	boycraziflirt
fantasizes about your feet	cassman2004
wants you dead	phoenixelle
thinks your moms HOTT STUFF	boycrazyflirt
wishes they were closer to you	legham_13
writes songs about you	emzis_journal
loves you very much	shansprincess
misses you	emojack
wishes they knew you better	bored_and_sad

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Your LJ Halloween Party by Karen_Walker
Username
You're Dressed As	Napoleon Dynamite
The Rock Star	nix_lebo
The Naughty Nurse	spunky_monkey63
The School Girl	_urbanlegend_
The Witch	latina_babi
The Care Bear	emojack
The French Maid	boycraziflirt
The Dominatrix	so_chic
The Clown	emzis_journal
The Cowboy	cactus_jam
The Porn Star	spacy_cheese

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Your Erotic LJ dream by cozzette

username

you went to bed feeling

You began to dream about

death_reaver

who was

begging for mercy ( in the good way)

public

with

everyone watching

which made you

b for m

but was interupted by

touchblade

who began to

watch

You awoke

thinking:"WTF!!!!!?????"

and you hope

that dreams do come true

chance of that happening:: 71%

Quiz created with MemeGen!

My lj wedding by chynafox
username
age
city
you will marry	death_reaver
flower girl	cactus_jam
best man	nix_lebo
bridesmaid	boycraziflirt
you will have your last fling with	emojack
registrar	emzis_journal
secretly wants to marry you themself	touchblade
date of the wedding	November 16, 2039
number of times you do it on your wedding night	60

Quiz created with MemeGen!

(This means I get married at like... 50 lol)

If LJ Were a High School by Karen_Walker
Username
Principal	teegzthetool
Lunch Lady	phoenixelle
Head Cheerleader	spunky_monkey63
Quarterback	death_reaver
Prom Queen	emojack
Gang Member	boycrazyflirt
Band Geek	boycraziflirt
Theatre Geek	so_chic
Chess Club Captain	cassman2004
Loner Goth Kid	cactus_jam
Class Clown	latina_babi

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Xanga

2004-09-26T13:10:35Z

New Journal.

http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=mysticmemories

Check it out. Leave comments. Much wanted.

Thanks

Bye

Short.

2004-09-25T09:26:33Z

Show yesterday.
Was good.
How's things?
I'm confused.
Are you confused?
I like love.
Sweet dreams.
Don't think of me...
You're alone.
Just as I am alone.
Bye.

(( The truth remains unspoken ))

2004-09-20T13:57:03Z

79 Days.

Nevermind, it's not like I cared. Or is that just what you presumed? You do that a lot. Just assume my feelings. Just think that it's all okay. When it's not. That's just you, I suppose. Yet I get the raw end of the deal, and have to accept it, every single day.

I'm waiting.... don't ask me for what. Not even I know. Don't you hate that? You're the one person who should know things. But you don't. You don't even know the substance to your wellbeing. To anything. What do you do then? I've been waiting for some answer for ages. I guess that's a stupid idea, hey?

.The way you see me doesn't matter.
.Ahh... there you are... well, one of you anyway.
.Still thinking of you...still after this long.
.Three panadol and I still hurt.
.Creep up to me.
.Do you remember those days?.
.On the rooftop that rainy night.
.It meant something to me.
.Nevermind.
.It's over now.

A bit of variety..

2004-09-17T16:01:03Z

Shut the fuck up. Can't you just... be civil.. just fucking once! And you wonder why I'm scared. All this time, and you still have no fucking idea, do you? Get away. You're a bad influence. You're bad to me, and bad to my life. Just.... go! Gahhh...

This evening rocked.

Got the job at Toys R Us.... go me...

I'm tired. I don't think it's just physically this time. It's emotionally too. All my insides, all my outsides, my brain, my heart, my lungs. They just need to completely shut down. I've overworked myself in regards to soo much. Thank God for these holidays. I just need to get away. For a bit. Just for a little bit. To re establish. To get it together. To get back to normal.

Thanks for everything. Whoever you are.

Anywhere but here...

2004-09-16T11:24:49Z

Couldn't you have said it somewhere else? Somewhere where it wouldn't hurt me. Somewhere in yourself. Somewhere in your mind. Please? People do have emotions you know. People do have a heart. And it can break, you know?

One person! One person asked me. "Are you okay?" "Are you okay, Katie?" .... what is that saying? Is it my choice of friends. That's just it, I'm the third wheel. That thing people want there, because it's fun to laugh and point. You don't like me! You'll never like me... arrgh... what am I doing wrong? What is it people don't like... why me? Why... always... me.... --sighs--

So... onto brighter topics hey?

--ponders--

yeh.

Sometimes I think to myself. Is this who I want to be? Is this who I am? Do I like who I am? Honestly.

Then I realised... I don't care who the fuck I am... someone loves me... really truly honestly loves me... and I love that person too. Even if a million people hated me... it wouldn't matter. I would never change. I would never risk losing that one person who makes it all okay. They love me, for who I am... I think that's all that really matters. Don't you?

No say.

2004-09-15T06:15:27Z

I'm sorry but I don't know what to do anymore. I've tried and tried, just to be there, just to be supportive... but there's nothing more I can do... it's all up to you from now on. Good luck I suppose.

Update::
Won debate. Will get medal. Hopefully.
Am stressed.
Have stress bumps.
Grey and fuzzy.
Kinda unknown.
Wants to write a novel.
No inspiration.
Wants to read.
Does't know what to read.
Has an english assignment.
Needs to reprint work as teacher is a mole and lost it.
Misplaced.
Not here...
Gone...

{K}a.t.i.e

mysticmemories @ 2004-09-06T17:20:00

2004-09-06T07:27:37Z

When something doesn't go right... after perserverance, what are you left with... a fringe that's hell annoying!

I'm a little muddled. Just spending most of my time smelling pepermint body lotion on my hand from Frankston this afternoon. Note: Trust your instinct... you know best...

Tears to me are en emotion you can't keep within any longer. And before you know it, heartache (or chemical ache) is pouring from you uncontrolably... and there's nothing you can do about it... you just wait I suppose.

I won't let myself get to that... I promise... you will see I am strong... and that I believe you when you say to me... what is coming from your heart.

Don't leave me in this world.. this world of nothingness... because you know I am nothing without you...

mysticmemories @ 2004-09-05T11:44:00

2004-09-05T01:44:44Z

... happy Birthday to me...

--sigh-- What a great w/e... lol